Ello-O-Vee-Eee

How many times do I have to repeatedly run those words through my head that I would just go insane and would be so grateful if someone could just blow my head off. "You love me. Yes you do." I hate living in denial but I just need to constantly remind and convince that you actually do love me. No one (I mean most girls and unfortunately am one of them) could ever stand her bf trying to make herself feel oh so whatthefuck by telling her this slut girl is so pretty with that fguly caked-with-lots-of-cheap-powder angelic face, and obviously fake c-cup boobies. Ya *Rolled Eyes* Still, I couldn't or probably I chose not to believe that you are that superficial to begin with however, exactly that's how humans are having to live in this superficial world for these years. Take it or leave it the choice I've to make for I might just be better off with the next one rather than putting myself through these emotional rides? Or perhaps I should slow down my pace and look back on how I failed every r/s before, why is it that I don't learn from them? So why? Why am I still holding on to someone who might just someday turn his back on me (with another bitch girl in his arms probably) ? This is what I called, LOVE. It sees with the heart, not with the mind. Therefore is winged cupid painted blind. Somehow or rather, I realized nothing changes, never the person, neither the heart. Love, I believe is all about accepting one's flaws and sees the imperfect perfectly.