也許你我都在「偽裝」

多少次又多少次，回憶把生活劃成一個圈，而我們在原地轉了無數次，無法解脫。
總是希望回到最初相識的地點，如果能夠再一次選擇的話，以為可以愛得更單純。

承諾就像 " 幹你娘 " 一樣，經常說卻總是做不到

你轉身，說不愛了，走的瀟灑；
我留下，說不要了，傷的沉重。

爱的最后；你還是你，我卻不是那個自己。

多少話想要說，靜下來思考
說出來後又能怎樣，要的是鼓勵自己堅強　
還是要狠心的把他人推下山崖
什麼都沒得到，卻也體驗過傷心欲絕
有人告訴我要勇敢
我也堅定的告訴自己，「我可以」
沒有誰依定要有誰才可以活下去，更沒有誰會因為沒有他而死去。。。

Ello-O-Vee-Eee

How many times do I have to repeatedly run those words through my head that I would just go insane and would be so grateful if someone could just blow my head off. "You love me. Yes you do." I hate living in denial but I just need to constantly remind and convince that you actually do love me. No one (I mean most girls and unfortunately am one of them) could ever stand her bf trying to make herself feel oh so whatthefuck by telling her this slut girl is so pretty with that fguly caked-with-lots-of-cheap-powder angelic face, and obviously fake c-cup boobies. Ya *Rolled Eyes* Still, I couldn't or probably I chose not to believe that you are that superficial to begin with however, exactly that's how humans are having to live in this superficial world for these years. Take it or leave it the choice I've to make for I might just be better off with the next one rather than putting myself through these emotional rides? Or perhaps I should slow down my pace and look back on how I failed every r/s before, why is it that I don't learn from them? So why? Why am I still holding on to someone who might just someday turn his back on me (with another bitch girl in his arms probably) ? This is what I called, LOVE. It sees with the heart, not with the mind. Therefore is winged cupid painted blind. Somehow or rather, I realized nothing changes, never the person, neither the heart. Love, I believe is all about accepting one's flaws and sees the imperfect perfectly.